“But we both loved it here and truth is porn is worldwide so she could be recognized anywhere. But as I said we were lucky. Plus once she quit and nothing new was coming out she began to fade from memory." He released a long breath, “Until the last couple years anyway."

“What do you mean? Did someone see her?"

“No, but the internet has blown up so much over the last few years and we found out there are now a few vintage porn sites out there, everything from seventies to nineties and your mother's videos are there. We can't legally do anything about it. The original producers sold the rights to them, plus coming forward to try would expose her anyway.”

Dad rubbed at his temples and I could tell this was taking more of a toll on him than me, but I had a feeling it wasn't just because I'd found out, it seemed something else was there.

“Now that you know I can tell you that I discussed telling you with your mother."

"Seriously? Why would you?"

“Because you're a young man and if you tell me you've never watched porn I'd know you were lying."

“Guilty. I gave him a sheepish grin.

“That's fine, most guys do. That was why I thought it could be time to tell you. My thought was what if you found a site that shows clips from older movies, what if you saw your mother? It would be better to hear it from us than for you to blunder into it."

“Worse, I feared one of your friends, or even one of mine could find it. But in my case I've spent the last twenty years knowing it could happen someday you'd be blindsided."

“Looks like I was anyway." I pointed out.

“Because you snooped under a secret drawer and then unlocked the box." He countered.

"Not like they were laying around the house."

“Guilty again." I sighed, “I thought it was your gun you were hiding. Wish it was." I added that for effect because I wasn't exactly sure I was all that upset about this, at least not like I should be.

“Your mother refused, said she couldn't bring herself to and would never want you to know that about her. She said she would take her chances she wouldn't be found out after all these years. You can't tell her you know." “I said that right from the start. I'll never say a word dad, promise." "Good, now I'm going to ask you two questions and I want the truth." "Yes sir." I nodded.

"You put one of those in the ver?"

“Hell no Fear of what he would say if I admitted I did along with the shame I felt for doing it made me sound pretty convincing and he looked relieved.

“Good, I wouldn't think you would, but then again you wouldn't think I'd have a collection of my wife's greatest hits." He seemed to be mocking himself, rather than her.

“Second question did you read it " He held up the note. This was on the bottom of the box,

"Yeah." I said quietly, seemed like the cat was out of the bag on that one anyway, and I had a question of my own.

“Uncle Dan was with mom?"

“He was." Dad answered, “Several times it seems. He was already in the industry for a couple of years. He was fairly popular and took a liking to your mom

“Obviously I said dryly. This was the one part of the revelation I wasn't thrilled with. My unofficial uncle had made sex movies with my mother.

"I mean off set. Look, Paul, I know this is shocking and you may not be happy about it. Trust me I didn't want him anywhere near your mother when she quit, It wasn't just a reminder of those times for her, but she'd been with him."

“Don't blame you “But that was childish jealousy. Dan was, no, Dan is a good man. He's a hell of a friend to your mother and a good friend to me too now, and he adores you."