That coupled with my guilt and stress had produced that reaction and it was loneliness and feeling unloved that had led to the emotional scene with Brian and the aforementioned incest propaganda had surfaced to make me see my son in his place.

“Who needs Doctor Phil?" I mumbled. Sounded like I was reaching for anything that would excuse my actions, anything other than could I actually want my own son? One thing was for sure, Paul wasn't the only one who needed to talk to someone.

There were two someone's I had to talk to tonight and I'd finally pulled myself off the couch to go into my room to do it in private in case Paul came out of his room. I'd stopped outside his door and listened and when I didn't hear anything had risked opening his door a crack and saw he was sleeping. Even in his sleep he looked sad and I could see his face was streaked with dried tears, his eyes swollen from crying.

Fighting back my own tears, I closed the doors and come in here to put Molly Minx to rest once and for all. At least for the future because thanks to my rebirth as a popular milf porn star, Molly would live forever on the net. But she didn't have to live inside my mind or my son's skewed fantasies anymore.

I finally picked up the phone and called Dan first.

“Hey, Mary," He answered, “How's it going, you in a better mood than last time?"

“Worse actually, we need to talk."

“Wow, you sound exhausted." I could hear the genuine concern in his voice, “What's wrong?"

“What isn't?" I sighed.

“I'm supposed to be heading out with Sharon in a half hour so I can't come over, but maybe tomorrow?"

“Maybe, I'll let you know, but if we do, how about at Starbuck's? I don't want to talk here."

“Uh-oh, this have to do with Paul?"

“Partly." I wasn't sure what I was up for to tell him tonight, so simply cut to the chase.

"Dan, I'm done. Don't book anything for me and you can start spreading the word, Molly Minx is back in retirement."

There was a momentary silence, before he spoke.

“I'm glad to hear that, especially after that last shoot."

“Yeah, that last one had a lot to do with it, oh boy, did it."

“Mary, you sound really bad, what happened?" before I could reply he swore, "Shit, don't tell me Paul found out?"

“oh my God he knows!" I surprised myself by sobbing into the phone.

“Oh, Christ." Dan sighed, “He find out or one of his friends? Better damage control if it's just him, but still, oh, man, Mary." He was speaking rapid fire, "Did he flip out? Do you need me to try to talk to him? I'll cancel my plans and come right over."

“No, he just found out today. We talked and now he's in his room, I want to give him time before I bring it up again and want it to stay between us."

“Hold on a minute. Be right back."

I sat there staring down at my baggy shorts and oversized shirt, thinking why couldn't I have just stayed this boring unsexy mom? Just dress a little sexy for work and come home and be a damn dud. Paul would have thought I'd changed, that Molly was gone. But know I had to give him something to be excited about.

“Okay," Dan came back, "You can talk as long as you need, Sharon is fine with us going out a little later. So I'm assuming he saw a movie. When did he find out, today?"

“He's known for two years." I whispered, I'd planned on only saying I was quitting, but when Dan guessed right it gave me a chance to talk, Still, I hadn't thought I was up for any details, but now I felt I needed to. Keeping everything a secret had done nothing but backfire and if I couldn't trust Dan who could I trust?