“Party?” she smiled knowingly “So not a girlfriend, just a little hey ho, let's go?"

“Sort of." I couldn't help Laughing.

“So a full green light, probably cute and I'm sure a fun girl, but something wasn't right was it

“Well, we did it, but uh admit I couldn't get it up. I frowned, I sure as hell was not going to

“A Little performance anxiety?" she asked.

“No, well, um. I sighed, feah kind of, she was.,.well she helped me out, but I wasn't the way I should have been."

I waited for her to laugh, but instead she nodded and gave my shoulder a squeeze.

"Nothing to be embarrassed about Cory, but I can see where you can't tell your friends or dad about it, its tough with guys.”

"Yeah."

“But see what a woman will tell you is that its sweet because with Donna you had more than sex, you had feelings. Sex was physical, but there was more to it. Now sex for just sex can be a lot of fun, but because you never experienced it, you're nervous and once a guy gets nervous things happen, or maybe don't happen."

"So what do I do?"

"Relax." She said, “You're missing out on a lot of fun and sooner or later you will meet the next Donna, but in the meantime just relax, you're not doing anything wrong."

“Easier said than done." I told her.

“I can't stop thinking about it. I've had chances, but when I get to the point of thinking I can go back to their place I worry and like you said, I know what won't happen and

“Better to not be embarrassed because what if the little tramp runs around and says you can't get it up?"

"Right!" I exclaimed.

"So how do I get over it?"

“Hmm , she sighed and removing her arm from around me ran her hand through her long auburn hair."I don't know, sort of in the same boat myself.

"You?"

“Yes, me." She gave me small smile, "You said yourself I could be doing better than toys “Oh, well..."

"You're right. I'm an attractive woman and God knows a horny one, but I'm in your shoes Cory. I was with the same man for just over twenty years. Our divorce was quick and I've been single for months, but have also been alone."

“But like you told me, you must get..."

“Offers" she nodded, "Oh, plenty and many from my ex's alleged friend's, dogs that they are, but truth is that's a long time with one man and I'm, well I'm nervous too."

"You?"

"Yes, honey, me. I need to break the ice, but I need it to be with someone who is going to be laid back and not assume I'm rearing to go. Someone I can take my time getting back into the saddle with. Guys my age assume women their age know exactly what we want, right now, I'm not sure.” She shrugged, “So same thing

"So, um, what are you going to do?" I asked. She laughed, “But I do need the real “Right now, buy stock in Duracell. thing and soon. What was your plan

“The opposite?" I looked away as I spoke.

“I asked an advice column on an adult site and they said find a hooker that way I can just do what I want and not worry."

“Oh, no, you don't want that." She shook her head.

"No."