One day until I graduated and as  much as I wanted everything to be  perfect it wasn't. I wanted us all to come  together and celebrate but I wasn't sure  if Alanna and I were on speaking terms.

I said what I had to, and I still stand  by it.

I was getting ready to meet Ryan in  town. Jake had left early this morning, a  pack meeting but I didn't need to  attend. At first, I thought that was a  little strange but the more I thought  about it the more I'd rather not be there  anyway.

It's not like he would let me do  anything.

I hadn't heard from Lana, but I wasn't  surprised. She was dealing with some  stuff, and I was giving her the time tosort it all out. If someone had told me  this was how my life was going to turn  out I would have laughed in their face.

I thought I would be off to university  living my best life, riding out the last of  my teenage years. Instead,I was mated  to an Alpha werewolf, pregnant with his  child and had no idea what lay ahead.

A sigh fell from my lips as I slipped  my arms through my jacket. I was in a  funk, and I couldn't shake this feeling  off. It's not that I wasn't happy because I  was. I knew this was where I was  supposed to be but sometimes,I  couldn't help the little what if thoughts  entering my head.

What if we never moved to Texas?

How different would my life had  been if I was still in Florida?

Would my g ran still be in my life?I had to get out of this house before I  fell into a slumber of depression.

Just as I got in the car he texted and  cancelled. He was too hungover to meet  for lunch, he was sorry, and he would  make it up to me. Instead of going back  inside I clipped my seatbelt into place,  turned on my engine and drove off  down the street.

I would take myself to lunch and  maybe even cheer myself up with some  shopping.

I ended up at the beach.

It wasn't beach weather, but it was  always my go to place when I needed  time on my own. I didn't realise I needed  time on my own until Ryan cancelled. I  just couldn't be bothered with anyone  right now. I didn't want to talk I didn't  want to socialise.Right now, all I wanted was to sit in  my own company and forget about the  world.

Reaching the beach shack, I ordered  a coffee with extra milk and took a seat  so I could watch the view. The sound of  the sea soothed my soul. It made me  relax and it made me think of home.

I made a face. Home. This was my  home. Florida was so long ago or so it  seemed. I guess everything that I have  been keeping to myself was coming to  the surface. Feelings that I buried, the  drastic change to my life that I just went  along with.

These pregnancy hormones were  suffocating me.

I didn't like how emotional or  vulnerable I felt. Even now I could feel  the tears in my eyes. I was crying atnothing. It just happened without  warning.

I frowned when a cupcake was  placed in front of me."I didn't-…".

"It's from the girls". The servernodded to the left.

Alanna, Lacey and Lana.

I cried more. To the point where I was  sobbing.

It was then I realised I needed my  friends now more than ever.

"We're sorry". Lana spoke.

"Yeah, we fucked up". Alanna added.

"I'm just here for support". Laceygrinned.

A laugh fell from my lips. I missed  them all. I missed our laughs, hangingout, sleep overs. I missed everything.

"I'm sorry". I spoke."I haven't beenmyself lately".

"Because you're pregnant". Alannagrinned.