"Having second thoughts?"

She shook her head."No just sad to  be leaving. I've lived here all my life; this  is my home and I'm going to miss it."

"It'll always be your home Alanna."

"I'm terrified I'll hate it."She pouredherself some coffee before sitting  opposite me."I have this fear that no  one will like me and that I'll not fit in."

"Moving to a new place is scary. I wasterrified and look at me now."I smiled.  "Shacked up with the Alpha carrying hischild."

"Did you have a fight?" She asked.

“Not yet.”

"What happened?""It's not what happened it's whatdoesn't happen. He never tells me  anything and then last night at your  parents. Your mom kicked us out."

"No." She gasped."My mom?"

"I don't feel connected to my wolf. Ican count on one hand how many  times I've shifted. I don't get why he  won't teach me."

"The dreaded shift." She spoke.

"The what?"

"For you to feel truly connected toyour wolf you have to shift and let her  take control. Then it's all about how you  handle the shift, the communication  and of course gaining back control.”

Why was I only learning about this  now?"And how do I do that?"

"You shift and let her take control"

"Well, I know that, but will I know ifshe's taken control?"

"You'll know. It's hard to explain butyou'll know."

"Why doesn't he tell me anything?" Iasked.

"Honestly I think he's scared."

"Scared of what?"

"In case you can't gain back control.You should talk to him. Make his listen  and make him see you need this to  happen."

"But I do need this to happen. I'm awerewolf just like the rest of you and  yet he treats me like I'm some fragilelittle doll that can't take care of myself.  I'm sick of it. I'm sick of feeling left out,  I'm sick of feeling like I don't belong.  Sometimes I wish I was still back home."I don't know where that came from,  but I felt better for saying it.

"You need to talk to him and tell himhow you feel. If you're not happy then  tell him."

"It's not that. "I sighed. "I just want tobe able to know things and understand  what's going on. I want to feel like I'm  part of the pack. He's all I have and yet  sometimes I don't feel like I have him at  all."

"Don't say that." She reached overplacing her hand on top of mine."Your  family."

I shrugged."I'm going to get ready for  your leaving party. I'll see you over  there."

"With bells on."She grinned.I decided to put everything to the  back of my mind. I wasn't going to  cause a scene and ruin Carter and  Alanna's day. Today was their last day  and I was going to send them off with  the biggest smile on my face.

My drama could wait till later.