"I'm okay I promise".

"I got the goods". Lana grinned.

She was carrying three glasses of wine with the bottle under her arm. I had no intention of drinking any. It was the furthest thing from my mind. But I would hold it and keep the glass warm.

"Oh, gimmie". Alanna spoke. "I've hada long day".

"Are you guys staying the night?". Iasked.

"I am I already told Pete not to expectme home".

I couldn't hide my smile. Lana had never changed. I loved that she was here. We may have gone through a rough patch, but I couldn't imagine my life without her

in it.

Overall, she was my ride or die and she knew me better than I knew myself.

"Beats staying at my mom's". Alannamade a face as she took a sip of her wine. "I'm not ready for the hundred questionsI'm going to get".

"Wait, your mom doesn't know you'rehome?".

She shook her head. "That's a conversation for tomorrow. Should we get dinner? Oh, should we go out for dinner?".

"Yes, I like that idea". Lana added.

I wasn't in the mood for that, I was still sore. My body still hurt, and my face wasn't much better.

"Could we just stay in?". I asked

chewing the inside of my cheek. "Not really in the mood to go out".

"Sure, of course, whatever you want".Alanna smiled.

"There should be some menus in thekitchen just pick anything I'm not bothered. I'm going for a pee".

"Chinese?".

"Sure". I headed into the bathroomdownstairs because it was easier. I wasn't sure I'd make the upstairs one without help.

I was still bleeding, and it was just as heavy. Hopefully it wasn't going to last much longer. After finishing I washed my hands and headed back into the living room.

Jake was home.

"Hey baby".

Oh, I forgot he was bringing pizza.

"Will I still order Chinese food?". Lanaasked.

"Are you okay?". He whispered.

I nodded."Could you get me some Advil and refill my hot water bottle?". I hadn't taken anything for the pain, but I needed something to take the edge off. I tried my hardest to just deal with it, but it was becoming too much.

"Go sit down please". He kissed myforehead before heading into the kitchen.

"Still order the food". I smiled. "I don'tthink one pizza is going to cut it".

...

My cheeks hurt from smiling, my tummy sore from laughing.

I missed this, missed them. I was lucky to have the friends that I did.

"Where's Lacey?". I asked. "I thoughtshe was coming?". It didn't feel right that she wasn't here with us.

"She wanted to but-…". She paused."Do you want a drink? I feel like I need atop up". She got to her feet, but I was quick to stop her.

"What aren't you telling me? Why isn'tLacey here?".

"She's pregnant. She didn't want tocome because-…".

"Because I lost the baby". I nodded.

Well, that was silly. I would never expect her not to come around because of what happened. I was happy for her, thrilled that she was starting a family. It was exciting news, and she should be

here.

"What's she going to do avoid me for 9months?". I joked.

She shrugged.

"Please tell her not to be stupid. Callher and tell her to come over. It's not the same without her here". Sitting on the couch I pushed the covers to the side and grabbed the blanket instead.

"I'll call her now".

I was in a daze when Jake came in. I was happy for Lacey. I really was but I couldn't help the little bit of jealousy that crept in. Was that wrong?

"Water, Advil and your hot waterbottle".

"Lacey's pregnant".

"I heard". He sat beside me, his arm

going around my shoulders. "It'll happen again for us baby, I know it will".

"I know". I bit my bottom lip until I drewblood. My emotions were still all over the place, but I didn't want to cry. I was all cried out and yet I could feel the tears welling in my eyes.

"Do you want me to get rid of them?".

I shook my head.

"We'll get through this Leah and whenthe time comes it'll be our turn again".