Chapter 118

Ryley

It's been a few days since I found out Eli andmy mother were alive. I was supposed to startworking again but it was hard for me to focuson anything. My mother still hadn't reachedout and I don't know how to contact eitherone of them. My past was catching up to meand I didn't know how to deal with it. Iwished for years for my mother to be aliveand prayed she would find me. Now it wasreal and she still hasn't reached out. How doyou not want to see your child? If it was mewith Channing, I would have been herefinding him not sending my second incommand.

I sighed, sitting at my desk, I massaged mytemples. I have a never-ending headache and Ifeel so exhausted. Even sleeping beside

Blake, wrapped in his scent hasn't given muchrest. Guilt twisted my stomach as I thoughtabout Eli. He was my best friend. We grewup together and we spent so much timetogether. He was my first kiss. I always

believed he would be my mate but when I metDorian I couldn't help but be attracted to him.And now I know why, he was my mate.

Closing my eyes I saw the hurt in his eyeswhen he knew Channing was my son.I

always told him I wanted my first time to bewith my fated mate. But that night I tookthings too far. And I can't regret it. I couldnever regret Channing. But that didn't stopthe guilt of hurting my best friend.

And now I was hurting Blake. Everythingabout us feels different and I don't know howto fix it. I don't want him to let me go but Ialso don't want to drag him down with me.And if my mother does have a pack then itwould be mine as well. How would Blake andI make it work if I have to run a pack?

I slammed my laptop close unable to

concentrate on anything but my problems.

Blake wanted me to change my last name andnow I feel like such a burden. And I can't get

my feelings or thoughts in order. I'm a wreck.

I took deep breaths, trying to pull myselftogether. I know I could never let my mother

see me this way and I'm sure my father isrolling in his grave. I was raised to be astrong, intelligent woman. I don't show

weakness. The public only sees the side of meI want them to see.

The reality hit me like a brink. Would mymother be proud of me? I wanted to share somuch with her. She has missed so much ofmy life and Channing's. But is she ashamedof me? Is that why she hasn't reached out?Because I had a child with the enemy?

My body trembled as tears fell down my

cheeks. I betrayed them. I betrayed my entirepack. I was supposed to protect them but Ifailed. I failed my family and my best friend.

I jumped up from my chair, it hit the wallbehind me when the door to my office wasthrown open. Men in council uniforms filledmy office.

"Blake," I screamed through the link

"Miss Evelyn Ryley North?" A man asked. Icrossed my arms over my chest refusing toanswer.

"Does Alpha Blake know you're here?"Idemanded, watching the men step closer to

me. I was terrified but I wouldn't show it.

"He is being informed as we speak. You are*1man spoke.

"Never," I growled. He motioned to his mento grab me but I fought back with everything I

had.

I punched a few in the face before a fist hitme in the nose and I hit the wall behind me.

Two men grabbed me and threw me againstthe wall while another cuffed me with silveraround my wrist. I refused to scream, theburning was painful, taking the air from mylungs.

"You have no right to do this!" I spat outwhen the men turned me around to face theone in charge.

"Luna wolves belong to the council." Hegrowled as I fought the hold of the men.

Blake was standing in front of the house

yelling at someone when I was pushed out ofthe pack house.

"Blake," I yelled, his attention snapped to me.There was murder in his eyes as he looked atthe men around me.

Blake, please," I begged through the link,trying to pull myself away from the council's

men.

1erry, let my mate go, now," Blake roared,turning back to the man he was yelling at

when I was shoved out of the pack house. Allthe men flinched at his anger. They were

playing with fire and Blake was about to burnthem all.

"Blake, you know I can't do that. Even if she

was marked, she is still a Luna wolf and sheisn't your fated. I'm sorry but she needs tocome with us."I heard the man say.

"Blake, take care of Channing," I told himthrough the link. I didn't want the council toknow about my son.

"Her son's father will be coming to get himsoon," the man said as his men were movingme to a vehicle. I fought harder to get awayfrom the men. I needed to protect my sonDorian can't have him.

Blake's skin ripped and I knew he was closeto shifting and taking everyone out. I knew hewould protect me with his life.

Blake, stop. I love you and I need you toprotect the boys." I pleaded with him. Myeyes filled with tears as his eyes met mine.He was furious but there was also pain.

"Don't let him take Channing," I begged

before I was shoved into the back of an SUV.A man on either side of me, caging me in. Icould hear Lily whimpering as the vehiclepulled away from the pack house, Blake andour boys.